- Reaction score
- 1
- Points
- 230
This thread is helping me. I'm on a tasking, and things at home with the missus isn't going good. She has already admitted to making out with some dink at the bar (who knows how far it went) wasnt even gone 2 weeks before it happened! GRRRRRR!!! we talked, and whatever i'm trying to deal with it. i know she has been confused lately, some my fault, some hers, but it happened. We are working things out best we can being so far apart, but i know she plans on going out this week and i'm so worried. See i have depression, and some self esteem issues.. these cause me to be a jealous, and at times controlling freakshow. I never even knew i was so bad.. i didnt even really know i had a problem,, i was too busy blaming everyone else.. anyway..
long story short... she wants to go out.. i'm not comfortable with it, because of what she has done, but i dont want to say much against it, because that will push her away further. I love her, and deep down i know she loves me.. i'm just so far away. its a 4 months tasking, not quite a deployment, but a long time away from home either way.. especially for our first time apart. but being a tasking, not a tour, there isn't much for support.
Im so frustrated, and scared. I dont want to lose her, but i cant let her walk all over me. I'm getting help for my personal issues, but as far as the relationship, we aren't married, so i'm pretty much being told to cut her loose and to get over it. ?????? I dont know. This has been a bit of a rant/vent.. I do feel better getting it out though. Thanks for reading.
long story short... she wants to go out.. i'm not comfortable with it, because of what she has done, but i dont want to say much against it, because that will push her away further. I love her, and deep down i know she loves me.. i'm just so far away. its a 4 months tasking, not quite a deployment, but a long time away from home either way.. especially for our first time apart. but being a tasking, not a tour, there isn't much for support.
Im so frustrated, and scared. I dont want to lose her, but i cant let her walk all over me. I'm getting help for my personal issues, but as far as the relationship, we aren't married, so i'm pretty much being told to cut her loose and to get over it. ?????? I dont know. This has been a bit of a rant/vent.. I do feel better getting it out though. Thanks for reading.