hacker202 said:
Jesus Christ, I have no delusions and why would I need to take medication that is even blacklisted in the army enrollment...I am not followed by Santa's little helpers nor I am I crazy, I was just thinking at one point some people were going to harm me and its not something too crazy to think about it just wasn't justified in any way. In this world today a lot of people have the potential to be hurt by other people anywhere in random violence.
What EITS said. BTW, I wasn't trying to be funny - I'm pretty sure, by what you wrote at the beginning, that's how the letter from the attending psychiatrist would read.
Many people are a bit worried about things in the world today...however they don't let it bug them to the point of going to see a psychiatrist. If thoughts like that are starting to control your life, you have a problem that needs to be sorted out. There are times when a psychiatrist/psychologist/primary care clinician needs to sort out if the problem is something probable/believable vs overblown anxiety vs early psychosis. I'm a security conscious person - I'm aware of my surroundings, take combatives classes for fitness and self defense, lock my doors at night, watch where I'm driving or walking, etc - it doesn't make me pathologically paranoid though. I wouldn't be able to leave my house where I live if I were.
Worrying that anyone around you seen or unseen might jump you or "thinking at some point some people were going to harm me" in the general scheme of things, i e - you're not in Wit Sec for witnessing a Mob hit or something along those lines where it's a real probability vs possibility, really isn't all that normal. A person I knew wouldn't go wait for a bus to go to work if there were storm clouds around - someone who knew someone she knew was hit by lightning. She put 2 and 2 together and got 22 instead of 4, thinking it was a probable event instead of a possible event. She'd actually call in sick instead of taking the bus to work in that kind of weather. Needless to say, she had issues...
The medication that is blacklisted (as you put it) in Army enrollment isn't blacklisted because it's illegal - it's blacklisted because people that are prescribed it are taking it for a reason, one that is generally considered incompatible with military service. Other than the unwanted effects, did the stuff work for you? Anything positive come out of it?
I guess the one thing I do want to say to anyone out there reading this is this - if you have a mental health problem, get it dealt with, whether or not you want to join the military. If you have a condition that precludes you from joining, that's unfortunate, but it shouldn't stop you from getting treatment, be it pharmaceutical, psychotherapy or both. Thinking that you've got to stop your medication so you can get in? Don't without clear direction from the person prescribing it - when people start feeling better, they sometimes don't realize they still need the stuff for awhile or ever even and want off of it - if I had a dime for every person that has told me "I don't like taking pills", I'd be a multigazillionaire. Half the time, the reason they don't want to be taking them is because then they'd have to admit there is something wrong with them. Admit there is a problem and then own it so it doesn't own you.
Lastly, just because you really really want to get into the CF doesn't mean you should - there are entry standards for a reason. I'll say it again - it's not personal, it's business. This is a physically and mentally demanding line of work, so those standards are in place to make sure you yourself, as well as all around you, aren't placed in any more risk than is already inherent to the job.
Sorry for the rant.
MM